This Love Of Mine

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People have asked me “What do you have that’s different from all the others that have liked her?” I said, “The Love.” Love. That’s a big word early on in this journey of mine.

It’s what I love about her that separates me from the others.






And it means nothing if she doesn’t know, even if it means the whole world to me.



I wish not to keep you

in a cage such as my heart,

Although you’ve been my mind

for too long.



I always long for your presence,

and I urge you to discover

what has been kept in my mind,

all these months that have felt like years.



Slowly we will discover,

that true love will not be a disaster,

Yet satisfied we will be,

wherein prolonged happiness truly lasts.



Dreams are turned into reality,

with this new found hope,

with what we can share,

this that we call love.



I wish not to keep you,

in a cage such as my heart,

but only as a place,

where you can feel like home.



Home, with me.

Wedding Vows

1/20/09

My Wedding Vows.

I made this in English class earlier this year, I was thinking of one special girl while making this. She got to read it, but I know up to this day that she doesn't know that It's for her. Enjoy

I have stumbled upon a dream called love

Where perfection is suddenly so real

Sweet like angels symbolized by a dove

How I wish I could tell you how I feel

Girl, you would know that this is o, so real

O, a gift from heaven, such a blessing

To have you will force God and I to have a deal ,

To you, girl I give you my wedding ring

You should see how you made my sole heart sing

My only purpose to live in this world

Lose you not, because you’re my everything

By now you should have seen that you’re my girl.

O, the sole girl in my dreams.

These words I wish to express in action

Love like this, beautiful like our faction.

Puppet

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You're the Jester,
of this modern day 16th Century,
and I'm your marotte.
And playing with me is your latest craze.

You wear your rugged, stained dress,
And it symbolizes the friction between us,
and continues to show me how this Physics works,
how the Physics that this love has to be put to a stop.

You hold me with your choking grasp,
and it's as if i'm in need of air,
because of your tight grip.
Only because that this wasn't meant to be.

God have mercy on us,
we are a silly couple,
who keeps this going on and on,
even if all hope seems to be lost.

Throw me into the ground,
Make your fellow jesters stomp on me,
burn me and make me feel my failure.
I will have scars to remember you by.

You cannot play with human emotions,
nor play with the human heart,
but that's what you do,
what you do to I, your marotte.

But this is how we collide,
and how we co-exist,
in this modern day 16th Century world of yours,
oh Jester, oh my love.

but in this bright future,
Someday someone will pick me up,
And I will reflect on the color,
the color of true happiness.

I only hope,
that I am the only toy you threw,
not the old play things,
that you used to throw as a child.

Dedicated To President Aquino

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As I blog right now, the mass dedicated to Cory Aquino is being conducted. Kris Aquino has just finished her speech about her great mother, and I want to dedicate this post to Mrs. Aquino and her brave husband, Ninoy.(credits to the link for the picture)

"The Filipino is worth dying for." - Ninoy Aquino

Twenty-Three years ago, Two Million Filipinos converged in Quezon City, EDSA area to overthrow Marcos' Regime. It took three days of mass support at that area to achieve. Jaime Cardinal Sin and Cory Aquino were there to lead the Filipinos despite having threats to get shot and killed by the marines.

What I have realized in a short statement:



Even though I had not lived to see Cory at her peak in time, I have come to realize that I should be at my best with peace and with other people. It's not much but it has inspired me. Inspired me to do better as a person with the few days I have on this earth. Love for country, for justice, for people. The applause she received twenty three years ago still rocks our ears and the hollows of Manila Cathedral

We will miss you Cory. Truly. Salamat.

This dream will always be a dream.

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"but I was never told about the sorrow"

It seems this dream will stay as it is,
you and i know that our sleep only
covers the distance between us,
but this dream will always be a dream,
and I can only imagine all things beautiful
of what could've happened in our crossing paths.

I'm drowning in my own thoughts,
pictures painted of you and I together
have only distracted me from what
I should really be doing;
living the reality
that I will not share my life with you.

This dream will always be a dream,
your simple and beautiful smile
denies the physics and the equations
of false truths that this feeling
of falling in love is not true.
I can only live wandering on, and on.

Is it too complicated?
Is it too much for you?
Why? Why did this have to happen?
What is the reason, the exact purpose of this?
All of these questions, maybe left unanswered.
This dream may always be a dream,
but only one thing is certain.
Tonight, I will dream of you.

The Definition of Food

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I was working on my homework about the definition of food and nutrition, and I encountered this definition that actually struck me. Crazy, to think that actually an answer of my homework can actually be your solution or way to life. What would you think? Is it just me, or maybe we can agree here.

"Anything that instructs the intellect, excites the feelings, or molds habits of character; that which nourishes."

- taken from http://www.brainyquote.com

Let's call this "The Food of Life".

In which is in many different, but simple forms. Love, for example, agrees with the definition of exciting your feelings, instructing your intellect to be at your best because your girl/boy is around you. Thus, helping you be a better person and showing a side of your True self.

Or on a long time scale, at that perspective, look at yourself 10 - 20 years from now. Where will you be? Will that personality of the person you are, is really what you want to be? Before we regret, we can start now and feed to our bodies, personalities, emotions, friends, family, religion to be a good person in the future.

The Food of Life can guide us to a better future, me saying that maybe "too" general, but you may get the point. It's our inspiration, mind set to keep us going. What drives us to do these things? The choice is up to you. Just don't give up. And fight for what you believe in, in the good side of things. It's just up to you on how you can accomplish this goal in what way, etc.

There you are, The Food of Life.
I hope this post inspires you.

By the way,

feel free to share your "Food of Life" and why or how it affects you today as a person.
Have fun, dear reader.

Childhood Memories

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I've come to share with you something..

This was made way back, I think the first actual words that made me have to write on paper. Thus, making the writer that I am today. It's funny how I actually made it, by something unknown, yet makes us feel so comfortable and so erratic, that you would have to do something to express. Maybe that's what love really is, something that takes the best out of you, makes you feel so concentrated, determined, tired, but you know it's worth it. It's worth your whole life, to be spent with someone, and you'll do the craziest, yet the sweetest things that you can ever do to achieve that with someone. Love is so mysterious, what makes it beautiful is the way you feel it inside of you, not even a thousand words, a thousand pictures, nor the songs of many can express it. The reasons for it are bigger than the universe itself, and yet it is a simple drive to do something beautiful. Something beautiful with a very special, and lucky someone. Yet at the end of the day, when you recall, you wonder what makes you do these things.

So here was my expression three years ago, when I first felt and first held love within these arms of mine. And possibly, her arms too.

11-28-06

To AM,

The day I met you, the day I saw you. I wasn't sure that I had a chance to say the words "I love you". Those simple words. Never knowing that you thought the same. These things have many meanings. And I will cherrish these moments forever, even if we are destined or not, it's His will.

I will never forget a person like you, I miss every moment I don't see you. It is all a great adventure. An adventure of love. Hardships become nothing when I see you, and know that I'd walk a thousand miles to say these three simple words.

"I love you."

Every second I spend with you, every hour in our lives, everyday of everymonth. These memories live within my heart, a heart that beats. And just once more, I say these words.

"I love you."

-end-

I was a kid then, who knows? Maybe it was this blessing from God that I've been praying for all my life, maybe this is love expressed in an immature way, or a guide. A guide to what true love is about.

One.. Two..

Remind me to put an off button on myself so I can finally sleep. Still wide awake. It's like I'm being haunted, and the presence of her ghost is here. I told myself not to make it much of a "big deal" or not to think about it often. I can do this, but maybe there's a need for me to share it to a friend.. I'll try to sleep again now, 'til the sun rises again. Goodnight..

Only one question..

What do people want most in their life? ( choose one. )

a. love

b. money.

c. fame

I need to relax!

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I'm going to the province next week, it's my cousin's birthday, and I need time to relax with family and friends.

Happy Birthday Mia!

Godbless, and always be strong.

We love you! - Your Family and Friends

Anyway, I've been thinking. I'm going to be in Junior High next year. It's very crucial. Studies are hard, and people say this is the year where I decide what I would be in the next ten years or so. It's still fun though, we see ourselves mature and we can share what we're interested in and our plans. Plus, it's going to be our first prom. ( uy, propose na kayo!! ) Who will I have to share the night with? In time, we will know. I am really excited though. Aren't you? It's another rollercoaster ride of love, and fun.

Let me end this post with a quote. ( Inspired by Mr. Erwin Ma. O. Carrera )

A religious woman once said, " count your blessings to fall asleep"

Knowing that, now I can say, "Truly, you are one of my blessings."

Therefore, I can smile before sleeping and dreaming of you tonight.

Goodnight, my sweet princess. Goodnight.

Life Goals

Life Goals

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this post is about my goals for this year.

1) To have a peaceful, organized and friendly year.

2) To get to know more amazing people I would get to meet.

3) To discipline myself in these categories:

     - My Words

     - My Actions

     - My Time Frame and Priorities

     - My Grades

     - My College Course

     - Saving Money

all of which related with emotions and feelings alike.

Okay, every year to me is like a new leaf turned over. I have to learn from the past, and do well for the future, well not only mine, but for others around me as well. I hope to keep this as a basis of my life, not only this year, but forever, I guess. 

The past few days have been full of heartbreak, doubt, fear, happiness, courage and all sorts. I have to set aside the problems and focus on what I need to do to accomplish the wants, and the things to avoid. Here I am, starting new. Also, it has been a week of realization. So that I can wake up also, and see for real. Remove the illusion of pain and sadness from seeing true beauty.

only one.

life is too damn short.

( you know what I mean, think about all the things that are worth living for, and think how fast time passes )

That's one of the reasons why I put these goals ( for life ) up. I want to be the best I can be, and I wouldn't want to repeat my bad habits, and the stupid immature things I used to do. With this, I realized that friends are worth than they really are. Our ties are what also what keeps us going, so that's also important. The support during bad and good times, and I salute all the good friends I have, and I'm looking forward to meet new people to get along with.

A lot has to be done to achieve the things I dream about this post, but these can be achieved from little decisions and little things I do ( just like the old post ). I hope it inspires you too.

4) Patience

One Push Towards Everything ( Two Parts )

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( lyrics are beautiful, check them out. )

Okay, my feelings have gotten over me. And it's about time I've gotten this off my chest and finally put this into writing. 

Falling in love has made me felt different feelings. Namely; fear, joy, and that butterfly in your tummy feeling that you will always get when you're with that special someone. I didn't know that I was actually afraid of a possibility, a possibility of something beautiful, the possibility of love. That's crazy, if you think about it. Falling in love is just everything to me, well not only me. Also with the girl I would fall in love with. And that deserves what I've got, to strive for that possibility, because it is something you can call beautiful. It's going to be about the both of us, but I'm only afraid of another possibility, which would be said to me in one simple word.

"No."

That's what I'm afraid of.

That's why I'm making it a goal to start little. Big things start with little ones, and it's what I plan to do. I can't be scared. I have to take the chance, while it's not yet too late. With me saying that, I've only got one goal.

--- TO MAKE THE BOTH OF US HAPPY ---

Even if I fall and stumble, and if it means her having someone else. Just let me see her smile and that will be enough for me. 

What else do I have to lose? 

My heart?

I have already lost it anyway, It's with her. I've fallen in love with a friend. I will do my best in every aspect of being a lover to her, nothing would stop me. And I see nothing wrong with that, dear reader. What do you think? Maybe I will let the skit I made up a month ago happen, finally. I will not just dream it, but I can finally do the real thing. The best part is, she'll be there with me, experiencing the rollercoaster ride from a spark, from a possiblity that is called love. It will finally be the real thing that I've always hoped for. I'm not desperate. Just try falling in love, and you'll understand.

But I would have to remember, to start slow and start from little.

---- 2:03 AM ----

the next day

"I lose myself when I think of you" - Tokio Hotel

I am currently drowning in what-ifs, but I'm not supposed to. And that image of her smiling in my mind just makes me smile myself. Heck, here I am, falling in love. Wanting to spend a small part of my life with her, and possibly everything of it, and she's there at her bed, sleeping softly, and doesn't know what the heck is going on. *laughs*

- added more in the quotes section.

Hope: A Journey With Two Ends

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Hope. 

It manages to keep us going on. It never leaves, and can take us higher than the sky. Eventhough we know this for a fact, it contradicts the hope of love, which makes it only plausible.

- silly me. -

There will be always two endings to your journey if you incorporate the word hope to your love story. Thus, possibly making it plausible and which makes it contradictory to the fact explained above.

Ending 1: 

Hope that makes your love come true, and you have your fairy-tale ending. Familliar, isn't it? I think I do not need to explain this one, because in life, I believe that one of our goals is to be happy with our one and only. Thus, bringing out the best of the two partners of the relationship, and never separating because of the one thing always will, never breaks. Love.

you know.. 

happily ever after..?

Ending 2:

Hope that will make you do your best, shows your best to someone, only one someone. Yet, it keeps you "hanging" and never satisfied, leaving you broken and scarred, but keeps you going on. Never give up for the sake of potential love. It wakes you up today, your purpose will be explained but it still leaves you..

incomplete.

( For Da Boys )

Kaya nga pare kailangan natin maging matalik sa babaeng yun.. Pero pag nasabi ko lang na gusto kita, baka di na ako pansinin. Kaya nga pag-dasal na ending 1 mangyari sa buhay natin. hahaha

And so I wrote..

Adoring you from a distance,

far enough to see,

your beauty that has always struck me

has kept me thinking of you everyday, everything

and abiding for your soothing presence,

only keeps me wanting to know you more.

Thoughts of you and I together,

have taken me to the heavens,

but I would have to remember,

that these are only indeed fantasies.

Fantasies of a possible future,

that I wish you and I together will experience.

And our chemistry will be unique,

answered from thousands of prayers,

a gift from thousands of wished upon stars,

kept alive by a heart that beats.

let me end this post with a random quote from the great Frank Sinatra:

"I've got a crush on you, sweetie pie."

dear reader, please remind me,

to keep my feet on the ground, but my head looking at the heavens.

Earth Hour 2009

/me gets his coke, two spam sandwiches turns off his lights, and turns on the tv, sets it to the National Geographic Channel

Fifty Million people supported the Earth Hour last year.

I urge you to support, just by turning off your lights for an hour, give back to the generous Earth that has given a lot to you.

This is Franco, signing off. 'Til next time. :)

Before It's Gone

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To start this post, let us know what the definition of love.

(from dictionary.com) :  love  (luhv)

                                    - noun                    

1.	a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.	a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

"Catch the sun before it's gone."

This poem is inspired by the song above, feel free to read.

Sunshine.

Love is like the sun,

and there is only one kind,

one kind to be real,

and fate shall decide,

whoever it's meant for.

And by then, your life will be called perfect.

Yet,  a setting sun,

brings your day into darkness,

into a time of pain and sorrow,

and plunges your world into a deep freeze,

but a kindling fire called hope,

keeps you going on, and on.

Hope keeps the light on,

towards our destiny,

Hope that unveils,

and unfolds mysteries in your life,

one of those called love,

and thus, experiencing it,

makes the sun rise once again,

and thus, seeing the truth and beauty

right before your eyes.

And keeps us going for days, and years.

until the candle of life burns out.

"I'm only a man, I'm not perfect, I may not know much, but I do know how to feel and express, tell me what It means to you when I say I love you."

Change

The Song Best Listened To While Reading This: Drive Me by Najwajean

Friends, I'm not saying that the people that have gone before us are not doing their jobs, they ARE doing it. Through that hard work, through their realization they also passed them down to us, so we can have a better future, it's an act of love from our parents, I believe. So, I dedicate this post to them, all of those people who go home from overtime, those who are persevering, and continuing to hope.

There's this lyrics on a song called Drive Me which I get triggered by the most, but I listen to the song because it soothes my morning mood and it makes me think.

"I cannot continue by myself, you cannot continue on your own."

It somehow co-relates with the talk I just had with my mom about life, in our country, in our school and something as simple as our house. She said, "children are the new driving force of the Philippines". Come to think of it, not only the Philippines, children AROUND THE WORLD have to step up, not only us, but in terms of our country, we're really it. The future, the change. And as one world, we can inspire each other towards prosperity and peace. Change comes from you, me, everyone

"This is how I feel, this is what I need, and I want your love, and I need your heart."

How you might ask?

Yes, how?

How.

There's this one other thing that mom said, it inspired me to do more things, to hope, and to finally make a difference by those small things.

"Big decisions, big jobs, big changes always start from small decisions, jobs and changes."

We indeed have to start small first. We have to realize that we cannot get results instantly, but we have to sacrifice ( I now get the definition of work ) and to do things that's better not only for your future, not only mine, but for all of us. We can always start by making good decisions, as we all know, man has the capacity to know right from wrong. In a larger scale, we can't avoid these bad situations from happening. That's one of the reasons why we're human, but being human can have a benefit. Learning. ( Yes, learning ) Learning to be more competent, civilized, faithful, perseverance. Our solutions come from that learning, our ideas, and our hard work especially. I think some of us have had that feeling of "yeah im doing this damn work but what's it for?".

It also needs to be noticed, that keeps us living everyday, afterall.

We'll eventually realize what we're working for.

That gives us the hope to strive for something we really what.

I leave you with this question, dear reader.

"Why not start now?"

boredom, fear, sadness, happiness ( Two Parts )

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Mixed feelings cloud my mind today. 

I'm supposed to be studying for my exams, but I guess I'll start at five.

I just ate my lunch, I cooked my self prepared meal in my life today.

( interest in cooking, what can I do? lol )

It's the last day of school tomorrow! Finally I can be free, earn and start my job, maybe find my special someone out there, but It's going to be hard. I will challenge myself to be self-productive, brave and many other skills I need to learn before I graduate. I'm only saddened though because S-E and I will be parting, but it makes me happy because we'll have a class reunion on Monday! ( 3/23/09 ). I'll miss that section, It was so far the best school year I've ever had in Zobel. I will never forget you guys! S-E Forevahhh!!!

"Good times are a breeze, enjoy it while you can. You'll eventually notice this when bad things are hard to go through."

I'm almost there. Hard earned rest for everyone! And yet, I would still be incomplete, but I have to be patient. ( Some people know what I mean. ) 

Alright, I have to go now. Til' the next day and the next challenge.

Take Two

Here, I tell you my stories.

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8:36 

she's the only girl that can make me feel this way

Do scientists have an explanation for thinking about someone a lot? Please, I need to concentrate studying, even though, I still think of how we could mesh together as one. It's not expressed in the gifts, not even my words. My body has a lot of feelings to uncover for her to really see, but it's too early to tell. Somehow she's the right girl from what I heard, and so far experienced with her. I don't know why, it's not like I have a crush on her yet or something, but I think it could be a start. I still need to be patient, see it through and look at it in a long term scale, it's only for the best. 

Patience, Franco. Patience.

Undefined

Have you ever experienced while doing nothing and just lying down somewhere,  thoughts suddenly come and you think an idea or a quote about it? That happens to me, and I feel the moments I miss should be written on paper, or somewhere where I can get back to everyday. Feelings like those are just here once in a while and I wish to express my thought of it to you, dear reader, other than myself. Just to share. 

"Sharing"

 What a beautiful word.

In relation to love, friendship, family and God. It's the most simple.

And so I start something new, get up from the ground, forget the mistakes and have a second take. It's over, nothing can change that.