Life Goals

Life Goals

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this post is about my goals for this year.

1) To have a peaceful, organized and friendly year.

2) To get to know more amazing people I would get to meet.

3) To discipline myself in these categories:

     - My Words

     - My Actions

     - My Time Frame and Priorities

     - My Grades

     - My College Course

     - Saving Money

all of which related with emotions and feelings alike.

Okay, every year to me is like a new leaf turned over. I have to learn from the past, and do well for the future, well not only mine, but for others around me as well. I hope to keep this as a basis of my life, not only this year, but forever, I guess. 

The past few days have been full of heartbreak, doubt, fear, happiness, courage and all sorts. I have to set aside the problems and focus on what I need to do to accomplish the wants, and the things to avoid. Here I am, starting new. Also, it has been a week of realization. So that I can wake up also, and see for real. Remove the illusion of pain and sadness from seeing true beauty.

only one.

life is too damn short.

( you know what I mean, think about all the things that are worth living for, and think how fast time passes )

That's one of the reasons why I put these goals ( for life ) up. I want to be the best I can be, and I wouldn't want to repeat my bad habits, and the stupid immature things I used to do. With this, I realized that friends are worth than they really are. Our ties are what also what keeps us going, so that's also important. The support during bad and good times, and I salute all the good friends I have, and I'm looking forward to meet new people to get along with.

A lot has to be done to achieve the things I dream about this post, but these can be achieved from little decisions and little things I do ( just like the old post ). I hope it inspires you too.

4) Patience

One Push Towards Everything ( Two Parts )

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( lyrics are beautiful, check them out. )

Okay, my feelings have gotten over me. And it's about time I've gotten this off my chest and finally put this into writing. 

Falling in love has made me felt different feelings. Namely; fear, joy, and that butterfly in your tummy feeling that you will always get when you're with that special someone. I didn't know that I was actually afraid of a possibility, a possibility of something beautiful, the possibility of love. That's crazy, if you think about it. Falling in love is just everything to me, well not only me. Also with the girl I would fall in love with. And that deserves what I've got, to strive for that possibility, because it is something you can call beautiful. It's going to be about the both of us, but I'm only afraid of another possibility, which would be said to me in one simple word.

"No."

That's what I'm afraid of.

That's why I'm making it a goal to start little. Big things start with little ones, and it's what I plan to do. I can't be scared. I have to take the chance, while it's not yet too late. With me saying that, I've only got one goal.

--- TO MAKE THE BOTH OF US HAPPY ---

Even if I fall and stumble, and if it means her having someone else. Just let me see her smile and that will be enough for me. 

What else do I have to lose? 

My heart?

I have already lost it anyway, It's with her. I've fallen in love with a friend. I will do my best in every aspect of being a lover to her, nothing would stop me. And I see nothing wrong with that, dear reader. What do you think? Maybe I will let the skit I made up a month ago happen, finally. I will not just dream it, but I can finally do the real thing. The best part is, she'll be there with me, experiencing the rollercoaster ride from a spark, from a possiblity that is called love. It will finally be the real thing that I've always hoped for. I'm not desperate. Just try falling in love, and you'll understand.

But I would have to remember, to start slow and start from little.

---- 2:03 AM ----

the next day

"I lose myself when I think of you" - Tokio Hotel

I am currently drowning in what-ifs, but I'm not supposed to. And that image of her smiling in my mind just makes me smile myself. Heck, here I am, falling in love. Wanting to spend a small part of my life with her, and possibly everything of it, and she's there at her bed, sleeping softly, and doesn't know what the heck is going on. *laughs*

- added more in the quotes section.

Hope: A Journey With Two Ends

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Hope. 

It manages to keep us going on. It never leaves, and can take us higher than the sky. Eventhough we know this for a fact, it contradicts the hope of love, which makes it only plausible.

- silly me. -

There will be always two endings to your journey if you incorporate the word hope to your love story. Thus, possibly making it plausible and which makes it contradictory to the fact explained above.

Ending 1: 

Hope that makes your love come true, and you have your fairy-tale ending. Familliar, isn't it? I think I do not need to explain this one, because in life, I believe that one of our goals is to be happy with our one and only. Thus, bringing out the best of the two partners of the relationship, and never separating because of the one thing always will, never breaks. Love.

you know.. 

happily ever after..?

Ending 2:

Hope that will make you do your best, shows your best to someone, only one someone. Yet, it keeps you "hanging" and never satisfied, leaving you broken and scarred, but keeps you going on. Never give up for the sake of potential love. It wakes you up today, your purpose will be explained but it still leaves you..

incomplete.

( For Da Boys )

Kaya nga pare kailangan natin maging matalik sa babaeng yun.. Pero pag nasabi ko lang na gusto kita, baka di na ako pansinin. Kaya nga pag-dasal na ending 1 mangyari sa buhay natin. hahaha

And so I wrote..

Adoring you from a distance,

far enough to see,

your beauty that has always struck me

has kept me thinking of you everyday, everything

and abiding for your soothing presence,

only keeps me wanting to know you more.

Thoughts of you and I together,

have taken me to the heavens,

but I would have to remember,

that these are only indeed fantasies.

Fantasies of a possible future,

that I wish you and I together will experience.

And our chemistry will be unique,

answered from thousands of prayers,

a gift from thousands of wished upon stars,

kept alive by a heart that beats.

let me end this post with a random quote from the great Frank Sinatra:

"I've got a crush on you, sweetie pie."

dear reader, please remind me,

to keep my feet on the ground, but my head looking at the heavens.